Time is 5:09am, at work in Chambly, QC. Feeling sad, was unable to work and gave myself an ‘exile’ style break to pen my feelings down before I continue. Because have nobody to talk to, not at this moment when I need, perhaps few hours later but this time shall pass.
Feeling sad today for I don’t know what reason. Allah has blessed me 3 most important things in life which are enough to NOT complain or feel sad, those are, Time, Good health and Money but still I have feelings and feel sad. I’m happy to alone at this time and not close to someone I love or someone that loves me because then I might blame my sadness on someone else even though it’s completely not that person’s fault. Then the sadness spread like a virus. Creates more sadness. I don’t know why I’m feeling so down, low and feel like crying, feel like getting drunk while listening to music or having some sleeping pills and then fall asleep in the car. Don’t know why, life seems unfair, tired of everything, tired of being back and forth. Tired of long lists of insecurities, having being replaced at anytime tops them all, not having a friend to share my thoughts with, if I share with someone close they’ll feel as if they’re the reason behind my sadness but that’s not the case here.
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